Friday 29 June 2012
Wednesday 27 June 2012
HYPER DUB
Clark enjoyed it which is a good sign. she's gonna have to get used to it just like I will have to get used to idiotic radio 4 dramas [shivers]. if the studio arrangement continues that is, which is kinda touch and go. don't know how long I can keep paying for her rather expensive storage space without getting anything out of it. (and what I want out of it is really rather amazing bashes which is even more touch n go so..) it's been two months now during which she managed to build two shelves. the studio is still full of her crap and unusable (not that I have any use for it at this stage other than the aforementioned bashes, the first of which I am planning for the beginning of August watchthismotherfuckingspace) and by the looks of things she doesn't see why this shuldn't go on for another month. hell I wouldn't. if I had a freak like me pay half my studio rent while I work on my website and go to barbecues and private views everyday I would.... the freak is a bit pissed off now though and determined to kill the lovely mother fucking theresa in me, I'm afraid. desperate times..... I shall not be forced to find a job to pay for Clark's storage. anyways anyways
I could have gone home after that first Kode9 set happy to have just been to one of the best parties of 2012. obviously I didn't
Laurel Halo was increadibly dopy. can't find a better word. she was playing the how ambient can I get before everyone liquidises and vaporises game and I for one was quite happy to liquidise and vaporise. had a lot of things on my mind and the trips she took me on were welcome. also it gave me time to hang out with the hit+run boys watching and learning and designing my perfect tee which I wasn't going to get which I didn't know at that stage. shame, I designed meself a real good one. oh well... just one thing Laurel though. do you have to sing?
unlike Cooly fucking GEE! now that bitch can sing alright! and if she was more hyper fucking dub she'd have the whole koko thing go through it's own floor to the other side of the planet...deep dark and beautiful! and she's hot!
scratcha dva was predictably dope and had me flying. ok flying is not the word is it. don't exactly don't love the man so... and fatima showed up and they did just vibe which was awesome.
and as a cherry on the rather tasty cake a Kode9 and Spaceape live ting, starting with one of my favourite tracks off Black Sun. ain't they all...
the one gig I don't take my soundrecorder to turns out to be the gig of the year so far. dontchano...
this tiger thing I have to say so far so fucking amazing. thundercat was one of the better experiences this year and now this.. nice big venue that's not otherwise so nice and a 5er...hm hm?
also we met an interesting young lady with a lot of shopping bags and a crash on a Lithuanian - which was what got her talking to us in the first place (all eastern europeans are the same just like all cute black girls with shopping bags are innit so...where is Lithuania? so... what are Lithuanians like?) and draggeed her to the gig - had a lot of tickets you see since we bought some then got some free (which is another good thing about the tiger big venue thing, wonder if it lasts)
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Sunday 17 June 2012
weekly suggestion 4: be straight
I don't get pissed off easily. tonight I did. it's like I've not done anything to upset this person, I have always tried to help. I've offered to work for him for free fuckssakes (ye, that be one of the reasons, I know, that and trying to give him advice - he's clueless when it comes to some things and a coward - I do know about ego, it's just I'm not used to misjudging people so much. I haven't got enough bad experience with people I do realise that). this guy has stabbed me in the back, while pretending everything is fine and we still best mates, and is now looking for reasons for confrontation? and then acts like it's me doing something wrong again? [ok quick explanation talking about someone I worked for for a while ideal job little money but fun didn't feel like work we got on fabulously, suddenly something happened ?? no explanation no more work, pretending it's still on just not now]
there are a lot of people in that place that take my kindness for weakness and that's ok because they are honest about it. I have no problem with being taken advantage of when it's not too much or honestly telling them to fuck off if it is, in a nice way dontchano, which can be rewarding for both sides - people are not used to being treated seriously and some of them crave it even thogh they have long given up on it and may have never learnt how to take it.
anyways anyways that is not the case with the person I am talking about I don't think. he takes my strength as a threat! what he craves is not being treated seriously, definitely not honesty, just admiration. certain kind of respect and prestige inside a community he doesn't even appear to like too much (oh he does on the surface, don't get me wrong, I know for a fact a lot of people believe he loves and respect them). and in the long run you don''t get that by trying to appease everyone and pretending to be their best friend while secretly despising them. not secretly enough either. I don't think he realises that by being nice and lovely to people and calling them 'family' then telling you they are psychos he lets you know he probably says something nasty about you behind your back too. you don't get being respected by being a coward either. you can either have things your way or refuse to confront people whose behaviour is not acceptable for you, can't have it both ways. so ye this my lil experience/illustrtion, now
your weekly suggestion 4: be straight with people. honesty is underrated
don't be afraid to confront somenone if what they do bothers you or tell them something they may not like to hear, like sorry this is not working out lets call it a day. keeping people hanging on out of cowardice is wrong. as much as you may try to convince yourself that not thelling them the truth they may not take kindly to is saving them disappointment they will find out eventually and be upset that you let them believe everything was hunky dory. it's like not letting your best friend who's got a crash on you know she's got no chance coz you are in fact gay. it's not about saving her the disappointment is it? it's about you being a coward or gettting a kick out of her liking you. how wrong is it?
let me say this again honesty is one of the most important things in healthy human relations. if you are a manipulative bastard then I guess you won't be much into it but in that case I am not really talking to you anyway. otherwise you should value honesty and want to surround yourself with people who are honest with you and you want to be honest with. I know it's quite likely that you've been fed bullshit all your life by the media and popular culture in general and made to think that you win people over by playing them but it is bullshit. the kind of people ou can only win over by playing games you shouldn't want to win over.
I am not talking about romantic relationships here but obviously it very much applies
ye you are getting your weekly suggestion early this week but I will have you know, not that it's relevant, that I've just had a Monday. planning on a full blown Tuesday tomoro (today) so good night.
there are a lot of people in that place that take my kindness for weakness and that's ok because they are honest about it. I have no problem with being taken advantage of when it's not too much or honestly telling them to fuck off if it is, in a nice way dontchano, which can be rewarding for both sides - people are not used to being treated seriously and some of them crave it even thogh they have long given up on it and may have never learnt how to take it.
anyways anyways that is not the case with the person I am talking about I don't think. he takes my strength as a threat! what he craves is not being treated seriously, definitely not honesty, just admiration. certain kind of respect and prestige inside a community he doesn't even appear to like too much (oh he does on the surface, don't get me wrong, I know for a fact a lot of people believe he loves and respect them). and in the long run you don''t get that by trying to appease everyone and pretending to be their best friend while secretly despising them. not secretly enough either. I don't think he realises that by being nice and lovely to people and calling them 'family' then telling you they are psychos he lets you know he probably says something nasty about you behind your back too. you don't get being respected by being a coward either. you can either have things your way or refuse to confront people whose behaviour is not acceptable for you, can't have it both ways. so ye this my lil experience/illustrtion, now
your weekly suggestion 4: be straight with people. honesty is underrated
don't be afraid to confront somenone if what they do bothers you or tell them something they may not like to hear, like sorry this is not working out lets call it a day. keeping people hanging on out of cowardice is wrong. as much as you may try to convince yourself that not thelling them the truth they may not take kindly to is saving them disappointment they will find out eventually and be upset that you let them believe everything was hunky dory. it's like not letting your best friend who's got a crash on you know she's got no chance coz you are in fact gay. it's not about saving her the disappointment is it? it's about you being a coward or gettting a kick out of her liking you. how wrong is it?
let me say this again honesty is one of the most important things in healthy human relations. if you are a manipulative bastard then I guess you won't be much into it but in that case I am not really talking to you anyway. otherwise you should value honesty and want to surround yourself with people who are honest with you and you want to be honest with. I know it's quite likely that you've been fed bullshit all your life by the media and popular culture in general and made to think that you win people over by playing them but it is bullshit. the kind of people ou can only win over by playing games you shouldn't want to win over.
I am not talking about romantic relationships here but obviously it very much applies
ye you are getting your weekly suggestion early this week but I will have you know, not that it's relevant, that I've just had a Monday. planning on a full blown Tuesday tomoro (today) so good night.
Wednesday 13 June 2012
Tuesday 12 June 2012
I have a dream presents: STRUCTURE
I have a dream: Black Jazz Consortium, Structure LP 12 "
a couple of tracks including this one on the Structure EP (if for some reason you wanna buy it me for 40 pounds of the evil stuff ekhe ekhe ekhe ekhe you know what I'm saying I'll have it but it'd be really rather silly buy something more useful), a couple on New Horizon but there are seven more beautiful tracks one better than the other on this LP. the whole ting should be pressed into two perfeect circles of black wax (none of this yellow and green shit please it gives me shivers) and sold to dedicated fans of the one and only fred p like me. I will buy it. I LOVE THIS RECORD I have been loving it for a long time now and listening to it too much and it's one of very few I don't get tired of and am never not in a mood for. shit is beautiful.
I will not buy CD or digital: 1. I have no words to convey how ridiculous I find the CDR format, may be coz I've had no CD drive for a looong time now, I also really dislike the object. really. fuck CD (T-shirt coming soon), 2. I have already stolen digital and 3. this one deserves to be played off wax.
and 4. I will buy digital eventually if I ever have money. shit is beautiful
this whole love for vinyl is in my case totally ridiculous I never ment to catch this bug but I can't help it. black records are amazing in so many ways.I don't like gathering objects for the sake of it but records have music on them! these beautiful perfect simple objects have amazing multilayered sound pressed into them and can recreate it! time and time again! and they have cool sleeves with nice artwork and shit many of them! I guess it's a bit like with books. they are as far from being just objects as the coup from being just a band. they reprezent!
reality check
is this reality check shit really necessary today? i don't like what u call reality much i could of told u that without checking
drop things and trip when trying to pick them up kinda day. and drop them a-bloody-gain. and I do sigh but go n pick them up again and will continue keeping doing it. still I feel this enormous pressure on my skull like it could explode any minute literally. it's like I'm on the verge of a panic attack that my body's preparing as if it didn't know I don't do panic. pointless. I do have good reasons to panic but I have a cheap SEP field around them I think maybe the batteries need changing
and all this because today the fucking 'reality' has decided to come down crushing on me. or is it because of the fucking weather it's fucking mid fucking june fuckssakes! or venus retrograde fuck knows
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kinda day
(I will take this opportunity to big up Powiekszenie, one of the best small music venues in Warsaw as far as I am concerned)
but hey
I remember crying to this song like a beaver (don't ask me, polish beavers cry heavily I don't know why) at a gig in Brighton I went to with Kleszcz once. I may be making this up don't think was in a state to realise even if the gig was still on let alone what a song was saying. but it's a cooler memory with this song in, mk? yes, one of the worsest moments of my life is a cool memory. doubt I will ever get even close to that state again but I know it could in theory be a lot worse. not that it's relevant just saying.
this really isn't my kind of music btw but Kleszcz loves Jamie Stewart SO much and I love Kleszcz so I kinda love him by extention even though I would never go as far as listen to him. other than this song on a day like this. this song I actually like and sing too on days like this. it's perfect.
here it is btw if you curious what it actually sounds like
and - u would of guessed if u'd paid attention - I love the video
ok I take it back this reality check shit was really necessary. it started with the so-called 'reality' check but led to proper real reality scan. and the result of the scan comes - like it always does - with a short note saying: it's all GOOD. it always is, but if you just believe it without checking you make little progress. doubt is good. bad days are good. 'it all' only keeps being good if it's in flux.
it's
honest! HAHAHAHA [wicked laughter] yes I know I am bipolar aren't you?
I may create 'brain fart' tag especially for this post but bwoy did I need one.
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Monday 11 June 2012
I have a dream presents: lafayette gilchrist
I have a dream: Lafayetter Gilchrist at jazz re:freshed (poster coming soon)
I have no words strong enough to convey my feelings for one Lafayette Gilchrist's piano playing
I have no words strong enough for many things because I use too strong words all the time because I feel too strong emotions all the time. I have given it some thought as in how to tame my emotions (they will kill me) and my language (it fails me; it annoys and angers people) and come up with the inevitable conclusion: not much point and at the end of the day I don't wanna. fuck it I die alone swearing and hyperventilating. shame. so be it.
anyways anyways since I have no words strong enough to convey my awe for Lafayette Gilchrist, ladies and gentlemen without further ado I give you Lafayette Gilchrist and his bench breaking stunt along with Dave Ballou, John Dierker, Samual Baser, and Pierre Favre. feast, before we move on to more recent stuff. if I find time
I just read this: Gilchrist will travel to Europe in October 2012 for concerts with Paul Dunmall and Wolter Wierbos amongst others.
my dreams and ideas keep coming true. to see LG has been one of them for a good few years now (of course I'm not carving the skin on a living bear here, my dear vigilant juju friend), dabrye's just been to London, dego's played boiler room. and then there's all that shit appearing on screens when I say or think it (happened three times yesterday I have witnesses) I am a witch....... .
speaking of the wire (which is how I first discovered LG) - it should by now be pretty obvious I have no words strong enough to convey my love for the wire - this is the funniest thing ever:
Sunday 10 June 2012
fixed wheels and karma points
got yet another nice karma payment today I get these all the time in so many funny ways if I ever complain that my mother f theresa nature doesn't pay off shake me. shake me!
today I got the 'you lose yet another spoke and begin to feel a lil scared (potentially not really, you a bit of a happy-go-lucky moron) and wobbly (really) only to have sikor deliver your nu back wheel. and fix it ... (watch this space) ...' karma point! marvelous!
it's just that this one was spectacular I got a few more today. andy yesterday and the day before you no what i'm saying if I ever complain etc u no what to do
so ye yall was right - fixed wheel fuck yeah! it did just almost bruise me badly on my look mum no hands eyes shut gillet square-clapton home route but yes i am giving it a chance. I still think I'll prefer to go back to free wheel but I am giving it a phat chance. or do alternate free and fixed weeks. ye right hahahahah
lesson learnt: don't try to suddenly stand on the pedals while leaning heavily to the side to go round something. for the moment anyway.
glad I didn't go finsbury park in the end. ok not glad, sorry. I haven't been to Gary's jam since I was made the residential dancer and told I had to be there so I wish it hadn't bloody rained bloody rained... dancing with wet arse legs and feet somehow didn't appeal this evening, might have overdone it in not so distant past
karma's a funny thing my sisters and brothers let's help each other! we do get paid i promise, one way or another
Saturday 9 June 2012
wow. wow wow wow wow.
looks like my people have recorded a track with jeru d D. and I find out form jeru d D......sigh
Friday 8 June 2012
what I am is what I am
I was told I was a schizophrenic and needed help (dead serious), argumentative cunt (kinda joky way) and alright. all by the same person in the space of a shortish conversation.ye I'm an argumentative cunt but my arguments take me places. sometimes takes a lot of effort though. sometimes it's wort it.
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nah.
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nah.
weekly suggestion 3: break rules
other than some fundamental things (which I'm assuming I don't need to name or explain), if you are not supposed to do something then you probably should. at least try. of course not always blah blah blah but if something is a rule (a RULE! - look around you! nothing's fucking straight) then it's probably wrong all the time. nine times out of ten? 50%? 20%? 70? I don't know THERE'S NO FUCKING RULE. but yeah, a lot. so I suggest when you encounter a 'rule' assume it's wrong in this particular situation until proven wrong (you) and right (the 'rule'. which of course doesn't prove no rule nothing. it just proves this particular situation should be dealt with in the way that something that calls itself a rule happens to say)
in a nutshell: question every rule
the word rule is a contradiction in terms. it's not a contradiction in terms. the term is in contradiction with how the world works. I haven't come up with the exact phrase yet but I'm working on it.
anyway, break rules. I don't mean it in a rowdy untisocial, showoffy see-what-i-can-get-away-with kinda way I mean making your own conscious choices rather than being played by 'rules'. this is how we tear this motherfucker up
if you have half an hour listen to the wise man. if you don't have half an hour FIND HALF AN HOUR. you want to. you really really want to.
Jeru tha Damaja: in order to build something you need to destroy
in a nutshell: question every rule
the word rule is a contradiction in terms. it's not a contradiction in terms. the term is in contradiction with how the world works. I haven't come up with the exact phrase yet but I'm working on it.
anyway, break rules. I don't mean it in a rowdy untisocial, showoffy see-what-i-can-get-away-with kinda way I mean making your own conscious choices rather than being played by 'rules'. this is how we tear this motherfucker up
if you have half an hour listen to the wise man. if you don't have half an hour FIND HALF AN HOUR. you want to. you really really want to.
Jeru tha Damaja: in order to build something you need to destroy
I'm ready to play we could play this game all day
I wanna know what you wanna do. WHAT IF I COULD SAY THERE WASN'T ANY RULES?
I wanna play play around... tell me if you think that you can get it down. coz this is what I'm dying for.
I mean, this is what I'm dying to do
juega conmigo, como ninos en la arena. yo quiero amarte bajo la luna llena, pasarla bien, escuchando plena. o jugamos ladron i policia, pero si te arresto de como todo el dia sigueme mami que voy a ser tu guia. tu eres mia solamente mia
(this bit together with the video - which by the way is very close to my ideal of a music video - brings back memories I don't really need now. too many layers to everything I can't keep up)
the way it All Comes Together is freak like me. madness
digo que me gusta asi. asi. asi. asi!
Wednesday 6 June 2012
what's wrong with you? off the record.
come, love it and get paid in kind for the support :)
amr_ will be on decks from round 9:30, not a clue who else is there
I shall come back to the issue of support. big issue
if you wanna talk to me meet me at the avenue
as a tru believer in Nothing Happens For No Fucking Reason lately I've been confused... random and very unlikely things keep happening seemingly just so other unlikely and random things that turn everything upside down can happen... plans that have no reason to fall thru fall thru just to make space for completely different completely unexpected scanarios. and then those too fall thru. but new ones are there already ready to take over do you get me
this happened for example:
my mind's made up, mind you
I know that I'm on the Heartache Avenue
waiting for my heart to break
it all turns out good good in the end scarily so or at least that's how I seem to be taking it - I have been borderline psycho positive about everything most of the time these days - but some of the things that happen, when they happen? fuuua..! funny thing: it's actually the things that are meant to happen but don't - the usual 'look forward to it if u want to fuck it up' juju way - that are most annoying and fucked up. yes I mean no. I wouldn't mind not swearing quite so much - don't get me wrong I love swearing nothing wrong with it when used effectively. too much is too much - how the hell am I supposed to stop though if everything is so fucking fucked?
meanwhile I have been making stuff (AT LAST!) and that has been going pretty well. I keep surprising myself with how creative I can be - really, not in theory, how many things I manage to get out of my had straight onto paper straight onto fabric.
the part that has always seemed most dificult for me - designing letters has been proving very saisfying and almost natural since I gave up on software (for the moment) and switched to paper pencil and ruler. I have so far designed three fonts though I only have several letters for each - the ones I am using, for now I'll keep adding more if and when I need them, then maybe later, I'll see, I don't know. who knows.
the whole process is very organic just how I want it to be, I come up with what I want to say, start writing and drawing it, work out the layout, look for inspiration for the font, draw my letters, tinker with them until they more or less suddenly become just what I need, cut them out and paint. perfect if I can do all this in one day from the idea to the ready object. whuch is what happened yesterday.
the foooook project I am particularly fond of firstly because it developed literally within a week from the very first thought (inspired by two very different visits to hackney wick and the surrounding area which used to be so many amazing things and is now 'the olympic village' - a massive and I mean humongous, increadibly ugly wasteland by the (scarce) looks of things, and a lot of talk about the olympics around in recent days) to the ready product (that I've just worn to the boiler room and I love it) and secondly because and I love it. I love everything about it the way it looks as well as it's perfect combination if I say so myself of sense of humour and an important message. this is what I am aiming for. I will do a separate post about the olympics. if I find time
and that's not all folks. next adventures/ideas/break-thrus packed episodes will follow. or not, ask the juju. hmmmmmmmmmmmm... I think the juju T/bag combo may be in store!
***
anyways anyways have you been dying to find out how the boiler room with Wiley could possibly go wrong? nah you know that already don't you? don't you? have you been locking yourself inside the boilerrom regularly and thanking whatever you normally thank for letting you discover it? ok you have, cool I believe you. So you will know there was no scene on my part as there was no Wiley to be involved. ok but that you would have known anyway innit you probably not as thick as me.can't believe didn't twig... anyways, it's probably for the best, it would have been embarassing I'm sure.
the punk might as well start calling himself Mos Def as well now that Mos Def don't no mo. I love Whiley I'm not stopping loving him ok.
or the former Mos Def
but it don't mean this attitude doesn't piss me off or that I don't think he should get his fucking act together. Wiely that is I think our Yasiin is probably beyond repair. being 'difficult' is one thing when u are talented that sometimes happens, shame but what can you do (other than try a bit harder to be less of a cunt) but lack of respect for people who work really hard to make good things happen and those who support you is NOT OK, mk?
me and Sandrine would for some reason find 'big up bang on' the most hilarious joke of the night though (sorry mate, you the joke nuber two. actually I'm more sorry that you should be in Dubai in the first place. you should not go to fucking Dubai. people do you hear me. please read this it is very very long so it may be trying for your concentrations span - not unlike this post - but it is worth it. I promiss*) and would burtst out with laughter that would turn into tears every time someone bigged up the poor lad and I have no idea why. it's not like we'd even seen him. ok we didn't think we'd want to see him but I at least wanted to give him a chance before coming back out for a spliff. this didn't happen as we were told on arrival we were not getting in - the place had reached its capacity. fair enough we waited till we could get in and when we did (less than 5 mins later;) we saw bang on otside, his bit over. Still we would laugh like maniacs every time his name was mentioned as if the kid was the worst thing we had ever seen. shame. hilarious.
things are turning very strict mainly due to complaints I guess but it is good, providing it will be enough to calm things down. I had been saying from the start there should be less people in the place it just gets too hot, some space and air is necessary to get the most out of it. and theres a lot you can get. this whole BOILER ROOM thing I will have you hear again (and I will probably continue keeping banging on about it) is brilliant. definitely on several of my top howevermany lists which I have to my amazement gotten into lately. will share some in due course. maybe. who knows. also even though for me it is not ideal at all (time management), it is fair enough and cool to force people to arrive early and see all the acts, NOT because you want to sell as much alcohol as you can which they don't but because you want people to see all the acts. because you think they are worth it. the respect for the artists and the audience and LOVE for music is what makes these things great and boiler room is one of them great things.
other than Wiley being in Dubay it was pretty cool, very very relaxed and there were moments when it all felt like a bit of a joke, which for me is ideal but I know this is not the intention and I appreciate it. it's meant to be about boiler room TV and quality, not a cool party in Hackney. I think Roots Manuva spent the entire time prior to his crash-act on facebook other than a microphone snatching stunt which seemed to slightly puzzle Dels, then was unable to get the ipad work though I really don't know how much of it was a joke and being relaxed dangerously close to the point of not giving a shit. felt a bit like he showed up at a mate's party- which he did - and, ok some other people showed up too and there may be thousands watching but it's still fooling around with mates. I quite liked Dels. slightly too serious but doesn't seem permanently attached to it may be a phase, he's music career is pretty young I think, voice and rhythm both need developing but the potential is there, some cool rhymes.
all in all very grimey garagy and dubby. yes I know it was big dada takeover just saying, btw if u want a free big dada sampler that they put out after that party featuring the line-up and more download
music wise it was probably the worst boiler room I've been to, still it was a really good party and very dancy which for me is key.
highlight?
* I don't think I'm ever gonna get over promise being spelt promise instead of promiss it does my head in. either start pronuuncing it like it says promise (demise? hm? hm?) or spell it right for juju's sake
this happened for example:
my mind's made up, mind you
I know that I'm on the Heartache Avenue
waiting for my heart to break
it all turns out good good in the end scarily so or at least that's how I seem to be taking it - I have been borderline psycho positive about everything most of the time these days - but some of the things that happen, when they happen? fuuua..! funny thing: it's actually the things that are meant to happen but don't - the usual 'look forward to it if u want to fuck it up' juju way - that are most annoying and fucked up. yes I mean no. I wouldn't mind not swearing quite so much - don't get me wrong I love swearing nothing wrong with it when used effectively. too much is too much - how the hell am I supposed to stop though if everything is so fucking fucked?
meanwhile I have been making stuff (AT LAST!) and that has been going pretty well. I keep surprising myself with how creative I can be - really, not in theory, how many things I manage to get out of my had straight onto paper straight onto fabric.
the whole process is very organic just how I want it to be, I come up with what I want to say, start writing and drawing it, work out the layout, look for inspiration for the font, draw my letters, tinker with them until they more or less suddenly become just what I need, cut them out and paint. perfect if I can do all this in one day from the idea to the ready object. whuch is what happened yesterday.
the foooook project I am particularly fond of firstly because it developed literally within a week from the very first thought (inspired by two very different visits to hackney wick and the surrounding area which used to be so many amazing things and is now 'the olympic village' - a massive and I mean humongous, increadibly ugly wasteland by the (scarce) looks of things, and a lot of talk about the olympics around in recent days) to the ready product (that I've just worn to the boiler room and I love it) and secondly because and I love it. I love everything about it the way it looks as well as it's perfect combination if I say so myself of sense of humour and an important message. this is what I am aiming for. I will do a separate post about the olympics. if I find time
and that's not all folks. next adventures/ideas/break-thrus packed episodes will follow. or not, ask the juju. hmmmmmmmmmmmm... I think the juju T/bag combo may be in store!
***
anyways anyways have you been dying to find out how the boiler room with Wiley could possibly go wrong? nah you know that already don't you? don't you? have you been locking yourself inside the boilerrom regularly and thanking whatever you normally thank for letting you discover it? ok you have, cool I believe you. So you will know there was no scene on my part as there was no Wiley to be involved. ok but that you would have known anyway innit you probably not as thick as me.can't believe didn't twig... anyways, it's probably for the best, it would have been embarassing I'm sure.
the punk might as well start calling himself Mos Def as well now that Mos Def don't no mo. I love Whiley I'm not stopping loving him ok.
or the former Mos Def
but it don't mean this attitude doesn't piss me off or that I don't think he should get his fucking act together. Wiely that is I think our Yasiin is probably beyond repair. being 'difficult' is one thing when u are talented that sometimes happens, shame but what can you do (other than try a bit harder to be less of a cunt) but lack of respect for people who work really hard to make good things happen and those who support you is NOT OK, mk?
me and Sandrine would for some reason find 'big up bang on' the most hilarious joke of the night though (sorry mate, you the joke nuber two. actually I'm more sorry that you should be in Dubai in the first place. you should not go to fucking Dubai. people do you hear me. please read this it is very very long so it may be trying for your concentrations span - not unlike this post - but it is worth it. I promiss*) and would burtst out with laughter that would turn into tears every time someone bigged up the poor lad and I have no idea why. it's not like we'd even seen him. ok we didn't think we'd want to see him but I at least wanted to give him a chance before coming back out for a spliff. this didn't happen as we were told on arrival we were not getting in - the place had reached its capacity. fair enough we waited till we could get in and when we did (less than 5 mins later;) we saw bang on otside, his bit over. Still we would laugh like maniacs every time his name was mentioned as if the kid was the worst thing we had ever seen. shame. hilarious.
things are turning very strict mainly due to complaints I guess but it is good, providing it will be enough to calm things down. I had been saying from the start there should be less people in the place it just gets too hot, some space and air is necessary to get the most out of it. and theres a lot you can get. this whole BOILER ROOM thing I will have you hear again (and I will probably continue keeping banging on about it) is brilliant. definitely on several of my top howevermany lists which I have to my amazement gotten into lately. will share some in due course. maybe. who knows. also even though for me it is not ideal at all (time management), it is fair enough and cool to force people to arrive early and see all the acts, NOT because you want to sell as much alcohol as you can which they don't but because you want people to see all the acts. because you think they are worth it. the respect for the artists and the audience and LOVE for music is what makes these things great and boiler room is one of them great things.
other than Wiley being in Dubay it was pretty cool, very very relaxed and there were moments when it all felt like a bit of a joke, which for me is ideal but I know this is not the intention and I appreciate it. it's meant to be about boiler room TV and quality, not a cool party in Hackney. I think Roots Manuva spent the entire time prior to his crash-act on facebook other than a microphone snatching stunt which seemed to slightly puzzle Dels, then was unable to get the ipad work though I really don't know how much of it was a joke and being relaxed dangerously close to the point of not giving a shit. felt a bit like he showed up at a mate's party- which he did - and, ok some other people showed up too and there may be thousands watching but it's still fooling around with mates. I quite liked Dels. slightly too serious but doesn't seem permanently attached to it may be a phase, he's music career is pretty young I think, voice and rhythm both need developing but the potential is there, some cool rhymes.
all in all very grimey garagy and dubby. yes I know it was big dada takeover just saying, btw if u want a free big dada sampler that they put out after that party featuring the line-up and more download
music wise it was probably the worst boiler room I've been to, still it was a really good party and very dancy which for me is key.
highlight?
* I don't think I'm ever gonna get over promise being spelt promise instead of promiss it does my head in. either start pronuuncing it like it says promise (demise? hm? hm?) or spell it right for juju's sake
Tuesday 5 June 2012
Kalakuta and United Vibrations @ New Cross Inn 4 June 2012
I saw United Vibrations last night again. again I'd planned no such thing. I seem to be somehow subconsciously stalking them but I can't help believing it's them stalking me. it's not that I don't love United Vibrations. I love United Vibrations. I think they are one of the best live acts around when it comes to the vibe they create, very few bands can do it like they do it, they just smash it every time, pure joy! every time I see them I am exhilarated in a crowd of exhilarated people! If you haven't seen them U must u must u must!
it's just that I've seen them many times. I have counted seven possibly more. And I think twice out of those seven I actually meant to go see them. They just keep showing up! I even went to Brighton once to see Aloe Blacc and there they were Ahmad and Wayne playing horns with Aloe!!
Kalakuta were a bit disappointing last night, I didn't dance at all :( zero. to afrobeat. to my friends' afrobeat....the sound system let them down, Emeka's mike was shit, but not only that they didn't seem to be on the same air waves, the rhytm section just didn't seem to work. it got slightly better when Bola finally showed up with the cowbell - came in late and didn't even play drum which for me was the most disappointing bit obviously I am a helpless sucker for the drum, what can I say... the backing singer girls were very good though, really nice. also there were four horns and I'd never seen any of them before! they seem to go through a lot of horns, when I said that to Bola he just laughed.
we ended up hanging out there till about 5 a.m and had a really great time. I did say to Wayne and Ahmad I thought they were stalking me though which I could have kept to myself. Emeka was pretty unhappy with how their gig had gone but I think we managed to cheer him up a bit, me and Bola kept discovering really cool things we had in common. I love them boys they are such good people! I wish ___hadn't decided I was going to become his african wife and mama of his children as a result of it though...........it's very sweet and flatterning and all coming for once from someone I like and admire and even more so because I know he likes more than just my looks and the fact that I am nice (people are not used to it. sad. i hate moments when I am forced to think I should be less nice) but still, awkward. I've been in this situation before several times when god meant me and a guy to be together and me saying no was just me being unreasonable and me don't like it the smallest bit...hope this time it will blow over quick, I'd be really really upset if I had to avoid him.
big dada takeover at the boiler room tonite. how will I manage to be so close to Wiley and not throw myself at him I just don't know......
it's just that I've seen them many times. I have counted seven possibly more. And I think twice out of those seven I actually meant to go see them. They just keep showing up! I even went to Brighton once to see Aloe Blacc and there they were Ahmad and Wayne playing horns with Aloe!!
Kalakuta were a bit disappointing last night, I didn't dance at all :( zero. to afrobeat. to my friends' afrobeat....the sound system let them down, Emeka's mike was shit, but not only that they didn't seem to be on the same air waves, the rhytm section just didn't seem to work. it got slightly better when Bola finally showed up with the cowbell - came in late and didn't even play drum which for me was the most disappointing bit obviously I am a helpless sucker for the drum, what can I say... the backing singer girls were very good though, really nice. also there were four horns and I'd never seen any of them before! they seem to go through a lot of horns, when I said that to Bola he just laughed.
we ended up hanging out there till about 5 a.m and had a really great time. I did say to Wayne and Ahmad I thought they were stalking me though which I could have kept to myself. Emeka was pretty unhappy with how their gig had gone but I think we managed to cheer him up a bit, me and Bola kept discovering really cool things we had in common. I love them boys they are such good people! I wish ___hadn't decided I was going to become his african wife and mama of his children as a result of it though...........it's very sweet and flatterning and all coming for once from someone I like and admire and even more so because I know he likes more than just my looks and the fact that I am nice (people are not used to it. sad. i hate moments when I am forced to think I should be less nice) but still, awkward. I've been in this situation before several times when god meant me and a guy to be together and me saying no was just me being unreasonable and me don't like it the smallest bit...hope this time it will blow over quick, I'd be really really upset if I had to avoid him.
big dada takeover at the boiler room tonite. how will I manage to be so close to Wiley and not throw myself at him I just don't know......
Sunday 3 June 2012
Sunday morning
This week has been insane. INSANE. I will get back to this because it is all un-f-believable. this week EVERYTHING has happened. It's 08:18 am on Sunday and Saturday is about to be over in a few minutes once I've pressed publish but I WILL get back to this
good night
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