happy newish year

I may have already touched upon the subject of 2012 having been the intensest motherfucker of a year ever. a lot of disappointments, mini disasters, dishonest and selfish people taken thru the nose, sometimes with difficulty. some of it hurt I won't deny it. a lot more important things learnt, ideas crystalised, projects pushed forward, contacts made, a few new amazing people in the close family booth!! and music. all the time. everywhere. from everywhere. and so little of it average its negligible. not that I'm planning to neglect mentioning it. not that I ever seriously plan anything. this being the one lesson life never seems to tire of learning me. feels like I should have reached phd level by now. ha. feels like I have done too. 'so, what do you do?' 'ah adjustment and change management, how about you?' Im soo going with this line at the first opportunity.

as for this blog little seems to have changed (apart from everything): lots of drafts at different stages of being a mess: people, albums, EPs, videos, gigs, disappointments, mixtapes. I may go with all of them or some of them or one of them or none of them who knows. I'll do my best. if I change my mind who cares. if I don't find time and mental capacity, I will care.

something switched in 2012. and I know it's not just me who felt it, I've heard people expressing this a lot, por todas partes.

now -better late than never - happy 2013 hehe. you know the 'shit it's been on for two weeks already..damn..feels like two months too...' feeling? when the list of thinkgs you want to do gets longer and longer and time just flies? but so much happens you tell someone a story from a few days back and they tell you they were there... last night? no? ah.. k..

love n respect for all of yall in this nu year. it started on the bestest possible note and so much positive stuff has already happened it waay exeeds my high expectations (you'll barely never ever hear me say this. or maybe you now will who knows, the juju was soo 2012... [uneasy laughter]) and then sent me head first into a whirlwind of stress, problems, things to sort out and things that prevent me from sorting out things that need sorting out. oh well.

anyways anyways happy 2013 to all my people I love you and I'll keep loving you, I'll probably keep loving more and more of you. I will undoubtedly keep caring too much and getting stabbed in the heart and trying not to care so much and failing, hopefully. thicker skin would make life a lot easier. a lot easier is not on the list of what I want life to be made. I will unwittingly offend or upset some of you, please believe me when I say this from the bottom of my heart: I won't mean it.

special wishes [agit alert] to those who, like me, just want to save the world a bit by bringing it closer to the state of mental and physical health: lets tear this motherfucker up, it now seems much easier than ever. how's that for a permanent every day resolution.