freedom sounds
Wednesday, 27 April 2016
Thursday, 25 February 2016
Looking at you
There is a picture of you
looking at me (unaware), eyes
wide open, loving gaze.
That's what to me the picture says.
There is another one I see
in memory, or rather
same picture in reverse –
of you, oblivious to my wide-eyed loving gaze.
Friday, 2 October 2015
Saturday, 29 August 2015
Tuesday, 30 June 2015
been a while since one
got lectured
by an angry voice
of someone who won't risk and make mistakes
and understand some takes are not mistakes -
under the
circumstances - when one makes the choice.
Tuesday, 10 March 2015
Wednesday, 15 October 2014
Saturday, 6 September 2014
some old light some new light on an ongoing ting: LOVE
just found this in an old document called 'teraz dzisiaj' (now today) when trying to create a new one with the same name. here comes
I hope one day I will manage to write a similar - if waaay more melodramatic - post about what happened over the last four weeks and one day.
there are so many beautiful people around me and so many came through and a couple of them so madly hard over what had potential for the worst nightmare (including homelessness and broken bones) and was a string of blessings. I don't know how many people can count broken bones as blessings. probably many. I don't know if many do. my broken bone is a gift that keeps on giving and that's the truth.
to the guys who looked after me over this craziest, busiest and most exhausting and challenging (I do like a challenge, don't get this one wrong) time in my entire life, literally held my hand and my physical and mental well being in their hands - ye mental, literally in their hands. mental, I know - you know who you are and you know I love you but Ima say it again, not because I love repetition. I love repetition. but because I love you. I am overwhelmed with love.
I hope you've been checking out mandala eyes
I hope you've been checking out mandala eyes.
you know these rare occasions when you
really need support for whatever reason (though you may not realise
it till the last moment) and fam comes through like a rock? this
happened to me last night. I'd gotten involved in an event I don't
think I should of gotten involved in. a good beautiful thing that I
appreciate and support but is not about what I am
about. not quite. in spirit yes (at least in theory, spirit's not always easy to pinpoint) in practical reality: the interests
and the execution - no. the way I was involved was as frustrating as the way I was appointed bizarre. I don't quite know what my role was meant to be, neither
do I think I fulfilled it very well. all a little too surreal for my
liking in an uncomfortable kinda way. Like, there wasn't
anything for me to actually do kinda way. There were plenty of tasks
or whole roles I could have thought up for myself but I couldn't be
that bothered nahmean? still I was there trying my best under the
circumstances and there with me making it much gooder and much more
comfortable and fun that it otherwise would have been, was my people.
There are numerous categories of
'friends' but there is one type of people, hope you know exactly what
I'm talking about, that you always want to be around. all the time.
there is never nothing to talk about and there are never any real
misunderstanding or problems, a discussion or debate never feels like
an argument and all is always good. family. you know and they know
that in their case when you say my people or fam or sister or b you mean exactly that. familyforever. even if you fall out (I'm
talking theory here I barely never ever fall out with people and
never never ever with family, last time happened in high school but
didn't take long to make up. take after mother) it be like falling
out with family, will hurt like falling out with family and they will
stay on your mind. You may not see them for two years then see them and
it's like it's always been coz you don't change. ye you change,
sometimes a lot. you may become a completely different person in
certain aspects and have gone through a lot without them but the
core, what you both are about and your friendship is about is the
same and you can just pick it up where you left it. I'm blessed with
quite a lot of people like that. some of them I don't see much of but
I do whenever I can and when I do it's always the same. some of them
I see all the time. last night those of my people who are here and
could came came to something that is not exactly up their street to put it
mildly and had as much fun as they could muster. it was a great
night. the whole thing was a good if bizarre lesson of what not to
get involved in. this post is a [now very belated, am talking
October 201...hmm 2] thank you.
aww I hope one day I will manage to write a similar - if waaay more melodramatic - post about what happened over the last four weeks and one day.
there are so many beautiful people around me and so many came through and a couple of them so madly hard over what had potential for the worst nightmare (including homelessness and broken bones) and was a string of blessings. I don't know how many people can count broken bones as blessings. probably many. I don't know if many do. my broken bone is a gift that keeps on giving and that's the truth.
to the guys who looked after me over this craziest, busiest and most exhausting and challenging (I do like a challenge, don't get this one wrong) time in my entire life, literally held my hand and my physical and mental well being in their hands - ye mental, literally in their hands. mental, I know - you know who you are and you know I love you but Ima say it again, not because I love repetition. I love repetition. but because I love you. I am overwhelmed with love.
I hope you've been checking out mandala eyes
I hope you've been checking out mandala eyes.
Friday, 5 September 2014
Tuesday, 12 August 2014
weekly suggestion ft Robin Williams: care and show it
Robin Williams killed himself and everybody is talking about it. big publications I follow, small publications I follow, obscure publications I am discovering and lots of people are posting about it, commenting, disputing. emotional reactions por todas partes.
the reason? I say it's that nearly everybody realises consciously or subconsciously, viscerally, that depression is not Someone Else's Problem. It can happen to anyone and it happens to a lot of people.
yep. severely depressed people, some of whom on occasion consider suicide are about, you almost definitely know some, it's very likely that there are some among your friends. your gloomy friends who seem to be down a lot lurking in their bedrooms wallowing. but also yo happy go lucky joker friends, the craziest funniest happiest people you know, life and soul of the party types. It is not unlikely that you yourself suffer from it more or less often, more or less severely.
I say depression - like practically any other mental condition is on a scale and everybody is on it.
so long and thanks for getting everyone talking about depression Robin Williams. let's hope all those tributes, voices, speculations and a massive surge in viewings of your films is not where it all ends. that people take note.
it's a common illness and it is a bitch. in extreme cases it can be life threatening, it is always debilitating, makes you feel really fucking lonely and helpless and it can be helped. by real friends who really care and really show they really care.
yo weekly suggestion is: care and show it. love is the answer. real love is empathy.
the reason? I say it's that nearly everybody realises consciously or subconsciously, viscerally, that depression is not Someone Else's Problem. It can happen to anyone and it happens to a lot of people.
yep. severely depressed people, some of whom on occasion consider suicide are about, you almost definitely know some, it's very likely that there are some among your friends. your gloomy friends who seem to be down a lot lurking in their bedrooms wallowing. but also yo happy go lucky joker friends, the craziest funniest happiest people you know, life and soul of the party types. It is not unlikely that you yourself suffer from it more or less often, more or less severely.
I say depression - like practically any other mental condition is on a scale and everybody is on it.
so long and thanks for getting everyone talking about depression Robin Williams. let's hope all those tributes, voices, speculations and a massive surge in viewings of your films is not where it all ends. that people take note.
it's a common illness and it is a bitch. in extreme cases it can be life threatening, it is always debilitating, makes you feel really fucking lonely and helpless and it can be helped. by real friends who really care and really show they really care.
yo weekly suggestion is: care and show it. love is the answer. real love is empathy.
Sunday, 10 August 2014
Friday, 18 July 2014
weekly suggestion featuring beautiful planet: promote peace, love, respect, understanding, empathy and straight talk
encourage everybody you know to develop wellbeing and emotional resilience, give, be active, learn, connect, take notice and talk straight, especially young people
Monday, 16 June 2014
Head Boggle - '56 Tune
Head Boggle - '56 Tune (from Serge Modular in Hi-Fi LP) from Experimedia on Vimeo.
from Serge Modular in Hi-Fi LP
sick
from Serge Modular in Hi-Fi LP
sick
Friday, 13 June 2014
Monday, 9 June 2014
Monday, 26 May 2014
on repeat: Serein Forecast #5 / Colorlist Spotlight
been a while since one's woken up in the afternoon. couldn't sleep last night cause of a lil storm of thoughts and ideas in my head, kept turning the light on again and again to write something down. and to put this back on. shit is beautiful.
weekly suggestion ft. Colorlist, Suli Breaks, London Real and Jean Paul Gaultier: Through the Fires
I've changed my mind completely. no I haven't, I'm in two minds innit, as you are. anyways anyways my suggestion today is think as much as possible, go ahead and overtink tings - it works.
you can never think too much if you are good at thinking. so ye, I'm still saying don't ovetink tings but I'm also saying do. the key to it working for you and taking you to next levels is to expose yourself to new perspectives, different and oposing views, expand your horizons and also expand your comfort zone - really it should have no limits. put yourself through many different experiences, learn to just be - comfortably - in as many situations as possible while learning about people, interactions, social situations, relations, mechanisms, groups and communities. It all adds up I promise. the clear picture is much more interesting than the muddy one if a lot scarier, but also a lot more optimistic if you know where to look so make an effort to find out. and it's easier to find yourself in it. expose yourself to the unknown but also to the things, situations and people you think you know enough about to be able to judge them and rate or dismiss them, while really and truly - you don't.
put yourself through fires. appreciate difference. search for truths.
have I mentioned Colourlist? probably not, I barely never ever mention the things I'm most excited about coz I imagine myself writing long essays on them just now in a minute. have I mentioned serein label? I've not been this in awe of a whole lil venture and every aspect of it in a while, it falls in when I grow up I wanna be you category.
also, listen to this wisekid and subscribe to london real, which is another Iwannabeyou ting for me that I've still not written about.
also also, go and see Jean Paul Gaultier's exhibition at the Barbican.Ima have to get back to this and edit this post coz rigt now must sleep, have a long day tomorrow.
it's all good. peace
you can never think too much if you are good at thinking. so ye, I'm still saying don't ovetink tings but I'm also saying do. the key to it working for you and taking you to next levels is to expose yourself to new perspectives, different and oposing views, expand your horizons and also expand your comfort zone - really it should have no limits. put yourself through many different experiences, learn to just be - comfortably - in as many situations as possible while learning about people, interactions, social situations, relations, mechanisms, groups and communities. It all adds up I promise. the clear picture is much more interesting than the muddy one if a lot scarier, but also a lot more optimistic if you know where to look so make an effort to find out. and it's easier to find yourself in it. expose yourself to the unknown but also to the things, situations and people you think you know enough about to be able to judge them and rate or dismiss them, while really and truly - you don't.
put yourself through fires. appreciate difference. search for truths.
have I mentioned Colourlist? probably not, I barely never ever mention the things I'm most excited about coz I imagine myself writing long essays on them just now in a minute. have I mentioned serein label? I've not been this in awe of a whole lil venture and every aspect of it in a while, it falls in when I grow up I wanna be you category.
also, listen to this wisekid and subscribe to london real, which is another Iwannabeyou ting for me that I've still not written about.
also also, go and see Jean Paul Gaultier's exhibition at the Barbican.Ima have to get back to this and edit this post coz rigt now must sleep, have a long day tomorrow.
it's all good. peace
Sunday, 25 May 2014
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